Chapter 96

Cassie

His words echoed in my head, bouncing around and around. And even though I understood there meaning they didn't make sense.

His fingers slid up under my leggings. Kneading my tortured calves. I froze. Glancing down at him. "Julian." I whispered. He stared up at me. His eyes glowing and there could be no denying the look in them.

Lust blossomed in my lower stomach.

"You are the only thing I see Cassie." His fingers continued to move. "Let me prove that to you." Again he kissed my foot.

Usually my feet were a no go zone but it had been a long time since I had been touched by a man. The last person had been him. But it hadn't been like this.

This was tender. And maybe that was the problem. I wanted sweet but I wasn't sure if I wanted it from him. It wasn't what I was used to.

"Stop doing that," I moaned again. A small smile curved up his lips. "I mean it."

"If you want me to stop touching you, I will." He didn't let go of my leg but he did stop kissing my foot. "But I don't think you do. I think you enjoy my touch just as much now as you always have."

He was right. And an asshole. I hated that he was both. "I'm all gross from the trek and the ride down." I muttered. I didn't even want to think about how bad my feet smelt. And the rest of me wouldn't be much better.

"You are perfect." He smiled up at me. "I want you."

I rolled my eyes. Typical man who thought with his cock and not his brain. "I am huge Julian."

"You are beautiful." Kneeling up his hands hovered over my stomach. "Can I?"

"Yes."

Instantly his hands dropped to my stomach. And a look of wonder filled his eyes. "My babies are in there."

"So it would seem." Our stories did line up so yes I had little doubt now that I was indeed carrying his children. "Julian." I whimpered as his hands pushed my top up and his hands came to settle on my naked skin. Leaning over me he kissed my bump over and over again.

"Your mummy is such an amazing woman little ones and I am forever in her debt for keeping you safe when I was to blind to see. I won't let any of you down again. I promise."

It was sweet and caring and down right hot as sin because which woman didn't want a man to say those things whilst kissing her bump.

Julian's hands slid all around, pushing my top up further and further until they brushed the underside of my breasts.

I moaned loudly. The sound of it shocked the  both of us. He pulled back slightly. "I'm sorry I didn't mean to."

Sucking in a deep breath I tried to gather my wits about me and slow my heartbeat but it was impossible. "I don't mind." The words left my mouth before I knew what I was saying. But I didn't regret them. I wanted him. Just him. And now we were face to face again I couldn't deny it.

"I want to touch you." He whispered. "Being this close to you and not having you in my arms is torture. I don't know how I've lasted 6 months."

In answer I grabbed his hand. Pressing it over my right breast. He hesitated a second before closing his hand over it and drawing out another breathy moan from my lips.

"Then touch me." I whispered. "Kiss me."

He was on me in a second. Pulling me to the edge of my seat so he could slip between my knees and kiss me. Julian's lips were soft and insistent. Mine parted under his.

"Oh Cassie." Sliding his hands further up my jumper he pulled it off. Tossing it behind me and leaving me in nothing but my leggings and the ugliest bra in the world. Shame filled my chest. Crossing my arms over my breasts I turned my head away.

"Stop staring at me." I muttered out of the corner of my mouth. Too embarrassed to look at him. "I know I am huge and disgusting."

"No you're not." Julian's lips found mine again. "You are beautiful. Absolute perfection. I didn't think ive ever seen you look so good or wanted you so much." He cupped my breast over my bra and kissed me harder.

"But-"

Julian nipped at my bottom lip. Silencing me. "Stop thinking about it too hard Cassie. As long as you want me as much as I want you then nothing else matters." His voice shook with lust and surprisingly he sounded unsure of himself. Almost like I held all of his future happiness in the palm of my hand.

"I think you want me still. I think you love me."

"I do want you." I admitted in a breathless rush. There was no point denying it. He would smell a lie anyway. "I am your mate. But-"

"No buts." Julian growled. "You are mine and I am yours." He slipped the thick straps of my bra down my arms, my breasts popped free and I shivered. My nipples pebbling up instantly in the chilly air.  "Nothing else matters." Ducking his head he nuzzled into the valley between them. Kissing each mound with soft lazy nips and sucks.

I let my head fall back. My breathing coming in thick wet gasps as he kissed all over my breasts and up and down my neck. There seemed to be no rush in it. He was enjoying tasting my skin just as much as I was.

This was how it should of been between us from the beginning. It felt like a continuation from that day in my office when we didn't even know who each other was.

My eyes flew open and drifted towards the desk in the corner. Following my gaze Julian's lips curved up into a smile.

"I was just thinking the same." He grinned. "Come with me." Jumping up he took me by the hand and lead me towards it.  Motioning for me to sit on it polished wood and leather surface.

"I want you so fucking much Cassie. I feel like I'm going to burst."

I wanted that as well. "Then take me."

"Is it safe-" His eyes darted to my stomach. "I don't want to hurt any of you."

"It's safe."

Relief flooded his handsome face. "Thank the goddess for that."