Chapter 0366

Wants to sink himself deep into me, and bite me, and mark me as his own, and fuck me for hours - because I can feel it down the bond - and I want that -

I want it right now, immediately-

My hand slips down between us, pushing hard at the waistband of his pajamas -

But then I go still, my mouth gaping, as Jackson groans and pulls away from me, whispering my name.

I go still, staring at him for a second, not knowing-

But when I see the apology, and the hesitance on his face...

And I realize that Jackson is not going to be fucking me today...

I groan, and cover my face with my hands, and tilt my head slightly away from him. "You. Are. Killing me, McClintock," I whisper.

"I know, and I'm sorry," he replies, laughing a little bit and shifting his hips away. My wolf howls, outraged, desperately unhappy, jumping up and nipping his wolf hard below the jaw. But his wolf just growls, and takes her ruff lightly between his teeth, giving her a little shake. She glares up at him, but complies, behaving, even as a growl rumbles in her chest.

I shift my hands down from my face, staring at him, still panting a little. And he's still there, mostly on top of me, staring down at me and smiling his apology. But the lower half of his body has been shifted away, which is not what I wanted at all.

But honestly, why?

I don't understand, and I shake my head, and I know he feels it - my plea for an explanation.

"Don't take it that way," he murmurs, reaching out and petting my cheek softly. "I want you too, Ariel. This is not at all one-sided."

"Um!" I snap, sitting up a little to stare into his face. "It's feeling a little one-sided at the moment, Jacks!"

He grins at me, I think a little pleased at how much I want him, but he nudges me down the bond and urges me to feel everything that he's feeling too - and as I do, I see that he does want me as badly as I want him - that he's just as consumed by lust.

He's just way, way better at controlling it.noveldrama

*Stupid warriors," I murmur, falling back on the pillows with a sigh. "And your stupid discipline."

*Espionage is supposed to be disciplined too," he reminds me, pressing a kiss to my shoulder.

*Selectively! When they have to be!" I reach out for him then, taking his face in my hands, making him look at me. "Why, Jacks? When I want to, and you want to...why wait? What's the point?"

"I want it to be right, Ariel," he says softly.

And when he says it that way so sweet, so simple...

Gad, I feel like such a jerk.

"Stop!" he bursts out, laughing, smiling and shaking his head at me. "Stop feeling so guilty - I'm the one putting the brakes on things. I should be apologizing to you."

"Well, yes, obviously, you should," I growl, crossing my arms and giving him a glare I don't mean. He grins at me, and leans forward to press a kiss to my lips. "Jackson," I murmur, wiggling down on the mattress so that I'm closer to him, so that I can stare up into his face. "If I'm rushing you, and you want to wait, then of course I'm okay with that. But...can you help me understand?" I shake my head. "I don't get it."

"I just...don't want to move so fast," he murmurs, pressing a kiss to each of my cheeks. "We have time - plenty of it. And I could pose the same question to you. Why are you in such a rush to lose your virginity?"

I laugh a little, finding the question a bit ironic coming from him. "What, and you're not?"

Jackson hesitates for a second, staring at me.

And then I gasp, and go perfectly still for a second, staring up at my mate.

"Ariel..." he murmurs, tilting his head to the side, almost awkward.

"Oh my god!" I gasp again, sitting up fast and nearly banging my head against his in my scramble to press myself hard against the headrest of the bed as I stare at him, gathering the sheets up to my chest in my shock.

Jackson sits up too, giving me a little grimace and shrugging his shoulders, just slightly.

*Jackson..." I whisper, gaping at him. "Are you...are you not a virgin!?"