Chapter 6

"Dr Preston"  I say knocking gentlyand peep through the door. "Oh Lucas my boy and please call me Mark you know there's no need for formalities" handing over my coffee always made to perfection humming in delight with the first sip. "I'm sorry your right, just force of habit I guess coffee's perfect thank you" "your most welcome, so how's things? what makes you want to drop by?"  "Where do I start,  I have so much  tension, I'm struggling to loosen up, I put that down to the disagreements with my father, then there's the fact will take over and run this pack as my own soon but then last night I went out with the boys free time given to me but actually turnout to be a set up but beyond all that I've been exhausted in waves intermittently ever since last night but its only since I spoke to the bartender. I mean I don't think its a mate bond I'm feeling seen as I have another few months before I come of age. So that's why I came to you to see if you have anything that will help or even an explanation." I explained with frustrated look on my face, Mark looks puzzled too doesn't seem like good news I sigh at my own thoughts. "Come on now boy no need to sigh your trying to live up to so many expectations and live a life everyone else wants you to be your bound to feel tense but I'll give you a supplement to ease the tension it's a calming agent, one a day after breakfast should be fine. now to address these waves of exhaustion can you elaborate? How does it affect you both physically and mentally or? Is there anything you pinpoint that causes it or accompanying effects?"  I mumble on about details I'm sure of but some are unclear "one thing is that sometimes I get thoughts of the bartender with images of her flashing through my head once I push them aside give a short time and this exhaustion is back again but it's not everytime it happens that she comes to mind." "interesting, it could be a begining of a mate bond but I can't be sure on that, being an alpha it is entirely possible to find your mate early, as your father should have explained to you" Mark suggested. "He doesn't want me to find my true mate, my true luna, he wants me to take a chosen mate he picked out for me" letting out a loud growl, letting my anger be apparent. "I am so sorry I didn't mean to upset you just making a clear picture" "Sorry I didn't mean it that way I just don't agree with my fathers ways, I want my fated Luna"

Here it comes the exhaustion building again, Mark sees it with his own eyes, seeing the colour drain from my face and my body beginning to slouch and my eyes getting slightly heavy. "It's happening now isn't it" I nod my head slowly "Can I do some vitals and bloods while your in this state to see what I'm dealing with? to make sure it isn't a case for concern" "if you think it's going to help" I stated allowing him full access. "Your vitals are stable as ever I'll have to wait for these bloods to come back but I'll link you when I have some answers for you I'll also look into the possibility of it being a mate bond, I've read something similar before but I'm not sure if it ties in with yours, you'll have to give me some time to do some reading into that sorry I can't be of more help right now but I will try my best"  So on that note I finish off my now cold coffee and I take the tablets on the desk. "Thank you Mark, can I ask for your full discretion on this matter?". Giving an accepting grin ushering me out the door. "I'll be in touch" as I exit through the double doors the relief of sharing my problem eased everything for that moment.

I skipped dinner I didn't feel like eating, so just took a nap what felt to be hours was only 40 minutes. "Whats wrong with me Damon I'm exhausted but can't sleep but need sleep because I'm exhausted" letting out a large sigh. Damon whimpering along didn't make things easier I decide to link my mother. "Ma how are you keeping? sorry I didn't see you at dinner I've been trying to catch up on some rest. I'm glad your resting love, I'm okay today's been tough your father is not in the best of moods for whatever reason this time." She doesn't know? why doesn't she know? "Put the kettle on I'll be over in 5 minutes. Don't cause an argument Luc please"

It breaks my heart everytime she pleads, it's as if she's broken, she's grown weaker over the last year. Standing outside my parents house trying to calm myself before I enter it won't last long but for my mother I will try I owe her that. They've lived outside the packhouse since they found out about me, my mother loved it here peace here when she wasn't working or helping out the pack with other duties, my father was always so busy he was never home so my mother could be doing what she wanted. Even though I know they love eachother I still feel like there's something else but what? Its something they obviously don't want to discuss with me. Letting out a deep sigh, behave for Ma's sake Luc.