Chapter 8

What have I done wrong? questioning myself were my duties yesterday not fulfilled enough, did Jasper complain that he helped do his bed, either way alpha isn't happy with me. I head up to alphas office rubbing my sleepy eyes to try and make myself more awake. Without realising Leon future beta was watching me and sent me flying up the stairs, pointing and laughing calling me "orphan girl, I shrug it off, fighting back will only give me the worse end and proceed to the alphas office.

Here I am again I have no idea how many times I've been summond but it never got easier even though Alpha wasn't that harsh on me but he would try make me feel smaller and unbelonging to this pack. I knock on the door lightly, to which the door swung open. "Oh hello amelia I thought you weren't coming I was about to head to your room, me and the Luna need to have a discussion with you please come in."

I head in shyly and stand at the end of his desk waiting patiently for what I was here for. "Please Amelia darling come sit down over here with abit more comfort" the Luna pointed towards the sofa. "What took you so long to get here?" she asked me gentle reaching for my hand. "I'm sorry to have held you both up I was asleep when I received your link" I explained apologetically bowing my head. "Oh no no we should be sorry, if we would have known we wouldn't have got up here but I have to ask it is mid morning, why were you asleep?" alpha said sympathetically. "I have been very drained but I'm sure I just needed some rest so I thought I'd catch up while I have the opportunity" not trying to let on that I physically can keep myself awake. "I see, we have had some intel you haven't been yourself. That's why I'd like you to visit the pack doctor tomorrow please no arguments is that clear". I nod in acceptance I guess I'll have to go now Alpha Ryder has requested, was this Romans doing? surely he wouldn't take this to the Alpha. "The main reason you are here is that you've been working very hard on your duties and chores you will have a free day tomorrow, I'd also like to propose I sign you up for school now that we may have some access not absolute but I may be able to pull a few strings I've been informed you would love the opportunity to go to school". My eyes fly open and look over in awe. "We are unable to promise you but please know we will try our best" Luna Lexi explained. "I don't know what to say, thank you Alpha, Luna" taking them into my embrace, I think they were taken back by my gesture. My eyes begin to well up. "no need to thank us yet, just please go to the pack doctor tomorrow and get the rest you need" Luna assured everything would be taken care of in my absence and ushered me out the door.

I head to the kitchen and start searching cupboards hoping to find some herbal tea, chamomile tea, that will do hopefully it will help me relax and get some sleep. I make my tea and turn on my heel to get back to my room almost bumping into someone I look up to realise its Jasper. "So what are you doing lurking around the kitchen? shouldn't you be busy doing whatever it is you do around here." "I've finished for the day I'm just heading off to bed is there anything I can get or do before that?" not wanting to get a bad word said to the alpha or luna I've been praying to go to school since I can remember. "I'll just grab some snacks from the cupboards I'm not incapable of doing things myself" "Alpha I didn't insinuate that I just..." "Look just because my parents are soft on you doesn't mean I will be, you would be gone already if it was up to me, your worthless here your not the only omega that can do the laundry clean and whatever your duty entails it's not difficult so run along now orphan." I feel my eyes filling up and before I knew it I was scurrying to my room with my tea in hand.

My eyes now swollen and bloodshot from his harsh words, what did I do deserve this. Goddess what do I need to do someone to just give me a break. Orphan, I hated that word and everything with its meaning, it's not like I was given a choice sobbing again once more. Tara trying to comfort me with her warmth, she's the only one who understood me fully and probably the only one who ever will. Roman was good to me and always comforted me in times of need but he never did understand why these things hurt me I mean he has a perfect life, perfect parents, never had the treatment I did. "He does defend us though." I sigh "I know Tara what did we do to deserve him, not long until we find out if he is our true mate, I'm sure he will be there isn't anyone that comes close to the way he treats me. I am his queen and he is my king. What about Mr dreamy at the bar." Tara pointing out.

I must have fallen asleep in my thoughts last night, waking up to the sunlight blasting through the curtains. checking my clock 11.40, I must have needed that sleep. I feel a little more alert today not 100% but much better than I have been, I just head for the shower. "Amelia Dr Khan will see you at 1pm. Thank you Alpha." I don't have long so I hop in the shower quickly giving myself one of my quickest ever showers, thinking I should look a little presentable. I blow dry my hair, giving it some soft waves, some mascara try to hide my tired eyes swollen eyes from last nights tears and a little lip balm to cover up some of the dry skin, a pair of well worn leggings, white bandeau with a pink off shoulder oversized jumper and some pumps will do. 12.30 I let out a deep breath in relief, I make a quick bowl of noodles I wouldn't have time for anything else, finish up and head out the door.