Chapter 116

**Carl**

I watch Logan as Yasmin explains to us what has happened. She also tells him that Megan doesn't want to see him. He moves his hand through his hair and I see the sweat beading on his forehead, a drawback from the drugs, although it hasn't affected him as badly as it used to.

"Who's in there now?" he asks, moving his hands around his arms to hug himself.

"The paramedics and your friend David," she says looking at us both. "She's not doing anything but staring into space. If you talk to her she'll answer but it'll be a slow one-word answer.

"Have people arrived for the party?" I asks. She nods and looks down the hall.

"I think David took them to the pool room I'm not too sure," she says.

"Go clean yourself up," I say moving my hand on her shoulder. She nods and I can tell she's on the verge of tears. I take a deep breath and pull her close to me to hug her. "She's ok," I say.

"I know," she cries and wraps her arms around me. "It was so scary seeing her like that," she sobs. I hold her tighter and look at Logan to see him walk away from us. I frown and decide not to ask him where he is going as I know he isn't going to tell me.

**Logan**

I sit on my bed and wrap my belt around my right arm just above my elbow. THe last time I did this was over 3 years ago. I place the strap of the belt in my mouth and pull as hard as I can and trap it there with the prong of the buckle. Clenching my fist my veins bulge from my inner elbow. I take the needle with my free hand off the nightstand and look at it as I hold it in front of my veins. Taking a deep breath I close my eyes and feel the rush of emotion fill me, it has been so long, it's not even come into my mind until this very moment.

"One hit won't destroy me," I say out loud to myself. I don't even understand how I got to this place. Megan tried to take her life tonight and won't let me see her. That's how I got here, no. I'm here because of the choices I make, because of my uncle. Megan and I wouldn't be here if it wasn't for him. I don't care what they say to me. I've not seen Megan with my own eyes, I haven't seen if she's OK. They can tell me as much as they want that she's ok and that she won't die but I won't believe it until I see her.

I feel the sharp needle enter my skin and into my vein. I don't push in the liquid, not yet. I don't know if I want to do this, but the voice in my head, the one craving this so much tells me it won't hurt us, it'll calm us, make us happy. Make the pain go away, he pain of losing my love, the pain and hatred for myself. I won't feel which will be good.

Sighing I open my eyes and look straight ahead of me to see my reflection in the mirror. I look down at the needle in my hand that I'm holding to my arm. I frown and move it away from my arm. This iwsn't me anymore, I know it isn't. If this is what I'm going to go to if I lose her I need to get her back. I can't ever lose her. I need her just as much as she needs me and I'm not allowing people to get in our way anymore.

"Logan," I hear Carls voice sound taking me out of my thoughts. I look towards the door and see him. He looks at me and his eyes widen. "What the hell, I thought you packed this shit in," he says walking towards me and taking the needle out of my hands. I feel a sharp scratch and then look down to see I had put it into my flesh and pressed the fluid into my veins. "Look at me," he says and I can't. I feel my whole body tense "What was it?" he asks. I gulp and look at him as I feel him unbuckle the belt around my arm.

"Heroin," I say and I see the look on his face as that one word leaves my lips. He rubs his face with his hands and lets out a loud breath.

"Ok," he says and takes his phone out of his pocket.

"I didn't even feel it," I say quietly.

"You snorted some earlier," he says and I close my eyes as I stand. "Where are you going?" he asks

"I need a piss," I say walking past him and I notice the room spinning, I lean against the bathroom door and hold my head.

"You better not of OD'd on me," he says.

"I only took," I cut off and move to the toilet as quick as I can to throw up.

"You have, great if you pass out I'm taking advantage of you," he says and I wipe my mouth and walk, towards the sink.

"That's fine I won't feel it," I say and stagger out of the bathroom. I yawn and walk out of the room and as I do I see Megan. Yasmin is stood with her along with David, all three of them look at me and I step forward "Megan," I say and I can feel my body gettin heavy as I step forward. "I'm sorry," I say looking at her and I swear I see two of her. I shake my head trying to get rid of the dizziness.

"Are you ok sir?" I hear David say but it's faint.

"Yes I'm fine," I say and I feel myself drop to my knees and everything go black.

**Carl**

David and I rush to catch Logan, I knew he had taken more than he should. I can't even believe he has done it. He's been clean from the harsh stuff for so long and everything is just taking it's toll on him. He loves her and his uncle had to ruin this for him, it's obvious he can't live without her and it's the same for her. David looks at me and I know exactly what he wants to ask.

"Horse," I say and his eyes widened. "He had some earlier too," I explain.

"Yasmin," he says turning to look at her. "Take Megan into her room," he says and I look at Megan to see her hand to her mouth and the look of horror on her face. She moves out of Yasmins grasp and walks towards Logan as David and I pick him up . She holds his head in her hands and frantically says his name trying her best to wake him.

"What's happened to him? why is he?" she asks me and I can't bring myself to tell her that he's overdosed on heroin.

"He's drank too much," David says and moves Logan over his shoulder. "He'll be ok," he says to her to reassure her and she nods as a tear rolls down her cheek. David looks at me and nods towards Megan and I look at her and pull her into a hug to then escort her to her room. I get her in her room with Yasmin and then look at David.

"I'll get him to the hospital," he says and carries him down the corridor to the stairs. I take a deep breath and walk into Megan's room. Why would he do this? It nearly killed him last time. I don't want to go through nearly losing my best friend again.