Chapter 34

**Logan**

I had been in the gym since me and Megan had gotten back home. She was completely silent in the car and she didn't say anything when we got home. I had gotten changed and came straight to the gym room. Working out let me let off some steam, I hadn't worked out for a while due to been in the hospital most of the time. I know I didn't tell her everything today but I could only tell her what I allowed myself to tell her. I didn't want to lie to her about Stephanie but it felt the safest option when I looked at her. Although I hate to admit I am hiding from her right now because I know I won't see her here unless she needs me.

Pushing up the barbell for the seventeenth time I heard the door open. I pulled the bar down just above my chest and pushed up once more and moved it onto the hooks and then sat up to see Megan standing looking at me. I sigh and laid back down picking up the weight.

"Is it ok if I go out?" she asked me as I moved the weight down to my chest.

"If you want to," I say.

"Ok urm I may not be back tonight though," I frowned and put the weight back on the hook and sat up looking at her. "I'm off with Brendan, apparently one of his friends is having a party," she states.

"Ok," I said and stood while picking up the sweat towel at the side.

"If you don't want me to go I won't go," she says.

"I don't really have any said in the matter,"

"You do, you're my guardian so you can say yes or no," she explained. I sigh and look at her.

"Do you want to go?" I ask .

"Yes," she said, "I am dressed for it," she said, unbuttoning her long coat and showing me what she was wearing, which was a pair of black skinnies and a rock t-shirt. She paused "although I think I may have to change depending on where the party is at," she said as if she was thinking out loud.

"You can, just be back by 12 if you're not then I'll come and get you myself so leave me the address of the house where the party is being held," I state. She huffed a little and turned on her heels and walked out muttering something under her breath.

I rolled my eyes and walked out after her to see Brendan standing waiting for her in the foyer. I stood by the stairs watching her get the details off him and then walk over to me with the piece of paper. My eyes widened as I looked at the address. I knew this address all too well as I did buy the house myself.

"Is that ok, can I go now?" she asks. I nodded and put the piece of paper in my pocket while walking with her to the door. Brendan glared at me as I opened the front door for them. I watched him tell her to wait for him in the car and then turn to look at me.

"I know all about you," he said, moving his hands in his pockets. I frowned, confused to what he was saying about "the man you used to be, I know everything and I also know about your wife and that she's only been dead a week," he states and pauses "well pronounced dead,"he states.

"I've told Megan everything,"

"Really?" he asks "so if I casually brought up that your wife has only just passed she'd know what I was talking about," I clenched my fists. "And I wonder if she truly knows about your anger and you've been sectioned and the countless crimes you've done?" he asks.

"What do you want?" I ask

"Nothing all I want is for you to come clean about everything to the student you're in love with,"he states and steps outside "now smile and make it look like we're talking about something not so serious," I sigh and do what he says. "There's nothing I can do really as bribing you to do things for me will only hurt Megan because there is a bribe I would love to do but I'm not selfish,"he says. "All you need to do is tell her everything about yourself,"

"What's the time limit?"

"Until I decide to tell her myself,"he said smiling and turned and walked to his car, "I'm not very patient," he called loud enough for me to hear. I sigh and shut the door.

"What a douche," I heard Carl say. I sigh "I would have well said to you to stop caring for her or something because you can tell he wants to do Megan in every direction he possibly can,"he said casually. I turned to look at him. "I mean c'mon the weapon he has is pretty powerful,"he said "after all no one fully knows what happened the night with that man you 'nearly' killed,"he said as he walked up the stairs.

"I didn't kill him,"

"No you just helped him onto his deathbed,"he says. I sigh while shaking my head.

"You're being melodramatic, he's not dead,"

"He's paralyzed from the neck down, he can't do anything he was able to do before you got your hands on him so it's safe to said he may as well be dead," Carl said turning to look at me "you do know he committed suicide last year right?" he asks. I frowned "he was having physio for a long time and well he tricked one of his mates at the time to wheel him to the roof of the hospital and asked them to leave him for a bit they stupidly did and he wheeled himself off and he fell to his death," he explained. I looked down "so really you did kill him,"he said and walked up the stairs to his room.

I rubbed my face and moved my hands through my hair. I then walked up the stairs to his room standing at the door way. "Is he really dead?" I ask . He sighs and looks at me "did he really kill himself?"

He chuckled "nah I'm just fucking with you, bur he is dead, he was in a car accident," he paused and I frowned "he wasn't really paralyzed from the neck down it was more from the waist down," I growled and clenched my fists as I walked into his room. He looked at me and then gulped ""it was just a joke, honest please don't hurt me I wuv yew,"he says. I growled and went to hit him. He ducked and ran towards the doorway. "I didn't think you'd take it so seriously,"

"You're fucking sick," I said and walked out after him. He ran to the other side of the stairs and I sigh and walk down the stairs "don't talk to me," I snapped and walked down the stairs into the living room and into the kitchen. After about two minutes of trying to calm down I felt a weight on my back.

"I'm sorry,"he said, laying his head on my shoulder blade and then I felt his arms go round me.

"Kiss me and I will kill you,"

"Jeez you act like you've never kiss me before,"

"Do you want to find your own place?"

"No because then I can't watch you go round half naked,"

"Well carry on trying it on with me and I will personally kick you out myself," I said and moved his hands off me. "You almost make me homophobic," I said and moved fully away from him. He sighs and yawns while leaning against the sink and folding his arms across his chest.

"So what are you going to do?" he asks.

"I'm going to go buy another car, I'm thinking of a Bentley," I said thinking it over.

"You're going to splash the cash now like before?" he asks.

"No, I need a Bentley, they've got more room than my Porsche," I said and took a bottle of water from the fridge.

"But what are you going to do about that guy,"

"There's nothing I can do, the old me probably would have threatened him and may have beat him but I'm not the old me so I will just have to do what he says," I said and looked down.

"You look like you could do with a massage," my eyes shot at him as those words left him. He rubbed his hands together.

"Come anywhere near me and I will kill you,"

"Oh darling I'll come inside you,"

"That's it I now have a phobia of you, never mind gay men," I said and walked off.

"You can't run from our love," he cried. I sigh and sit on the sofa. I knew he was only doing to keep my mind off what was stressing me out. I knew most of everything he said to me was a joke. Most of it. He gave me a cheesy grin as he sat opposite me. I sigh and reach for my tobacco tin. "You're not having weed are you?" he asks.

"Just a bit, why?" I ask .

"No reason," he said, laying down and covering his eyes. "I'm shattered,"

" Well go to sleep,"

"Don't have any weed," he suddenly said. I frowned as I held the lighter to the end of my roll up. "You know you're gonna have to pick Megan up at that party and you don't need another DUI,"he says. I sigh and take the roll up from my lips and place it and the lighter down on the coffee table.

"Well I'm off back in the gym," I said, getting up and walking out of the room. I heard him sigh and mutter something under his breath.