Chapter 76

**Megan**

"Will you stop it," I snapped at Logan. He looks at me and sighs "Just stop touching me all the goddamn time," I growl as I walk out of the kitchen with my glass of water. He hadn't left me alone all day. I've only been up for an hour and he just won't leave me alone. It's irritating. I admit I'm on edge because I've had no sleep but it's annoying.

It's Saturday which means I'm off shopping; Yasmin had gotten a yes from her parents so I was going shopping with Melanie, Julie and Yasmin

Logan walks into the living room and sits on the other couch. He looks at me and then away to the TV.

"Are you having those nightmares again?" he asks. "I mean you're not taking your medication anymore and I've noticed you not sleeping," he states.

"I'm fine," I said and down my water. He sighs and l look away from him. "I'm off to get dressed," I said and walked up to my room.

Yes I was having the nightmares again but it isn't just that he doesn't seem to understand that sometimes I feel claustrophobic when he starts to touch me and I get almost scared of just how far he wants to go. I know I'm probably sending him mixed messages and I honestly don't mean to, it's just I do have my off days.

I pull on my black skinny jeans and button them up; I turn in the mirror and look at my scars. I hated these scars so much; they didn't look like the type of scars to fade more like the type of scars to darken. Logan is always saying he doesn't mind them and that he likes them but how can anyone like these. He either has a scar fetish or he is truly lying to me whenever he said it.

"Are you ok Poppet?" I heard Carl say from my closed door. I sigh and look down then reach for my top.

"I'm fine," I said and pulled on my top.

"Can I do your hair today?" he asks. "I'm thinking of a fishtail plait," he said and I picked up my brush and started to brush through my hair. "Or waves, I love your hair when it's wavy," he states "I guess I'll just talk to myself then," he said and I smiled a little. I wasn't being rude, I just wasn't in the mood to talk. It seems he is being literal with talking to himself as he starts to.

"Hi Carl, how are you? I'm fine thank you how are you Carl?" he asks himself and I smirk a little "Well my friend won't talk to me it's annoying really. Aww don't worry Carl you're still awesome. Thanks Carl so are you," Then there's silence.

I start to part my hair and turn on the straightening irons.

"You know Carl you look very hot today," Carl suddenly say's and I sigh "you almost turn me on. Thanks Carl I feel the same way, my body is aching for your touch," he said and I laugh.

I swear that sometimes his mind is not all there. He wasn't a person you could not laugh at. Who in their right mind stands and talks to themselves it's just not right. Granted I've done it before but only when I'm thinking out loud.

"Carl I'm having my hair down," I said loudly.

"Where is that voice coming from? Is that you god? I always thought you were a girl," he said and I stifled my laugh and went to open the door "if you are not god then show yourself," he demands and I open the door. He stands with a smile on his face. "Why won't you let me do it?" he asks with a sad expression.

"Because I've already done it," I said and he huffs "tell Logan I'm going shopping now and that I'll see him soon," I said walking away. I feel him grab my arm.

"What's wrong?" he asks, looking me in the eyes.

"Nothing," I said and moved my arm from his hand "tell him I'll see him soon and I'm taking the BMW," I said and walked off.

"Why are you ignoring him? What has he done?" Yasmin asks me as I decline another phone call from Logan.

"Nothing and I'm not ignoring him, I'm with you three right now," I said and all three looked at me. I smile and look away from them as I place my drink to my lips gaining a cream moustache. I lick my top lip and place the mug of caramel hot chocolate on the table.

"So why don't you tell him that instead of ignoring him?" Julie asks.

I sigh and open up my salad box. I'm not annoyed with him, I'm more annoyed with myself for getting upset with him over a nightmare I know won't happen.

"Shall I ring him then to show you all he's done nothing wrong?" I ask and Melanie sighs and gets up.

"I'm off to get a cookie. Does anyone want one?" she asks. I shake my head and so do the others and then watch her walk off.

"So what's going on because it's obvious you don't want to speak in front of Melanie?" Yasmin asks. I sigh and look down.

"He's not doing anything wrong I'm just having an off day and taking it out on him, I don't mean to but it seems all I seem to do is direct all my anger to him and I can't stop," I sigh and lean back in my chair. "The only reason why I'm not saying it in front of Melanie is because I know she'll just boil it down to the fact he cheated,"

"Is it?" Julie asks.

"No, because I've only started being angry with him today it's like I woke up hating him," I said and look at them. "He keeps asking what he's done wrong but I keep ignoring him, I'm being a bitch aren't I?" I ask.

"No," Yasmin said and then leaned back in her chair as if thinking about it. "I think it's understandable, everyone takes their anger out on the person they care about the most and you really care about him," she said "and it's just unfortunate for him that you are letting your anger out on him, I let all my anger out on my little sister all the time," she said and I smile a little.

"Yeah, I'm going to ring him just to tell him I'm not annoyed at him," I said and stood up. "I'll be back in a minute," I said and walked to a more secluded part of the coffee shop where hardly anyone goes. I dial his number and sit in the chair waiting for him to answer.

"Hey," he said "whatever I've done I'm sorry," he says.

"You haven't done anything, I'm just having a bad day," I said quietly and looked down.

"Have you bought anything?" he asks.

"I bought a few dresses, tops, jeans, jumpers and shoes," I say.

"Dresses?" he asks, sounding quite surprised.

"Yes, why?" I ask.

"No nothing," he said "I've got something for you," he says.

"Oh, what?" I ask.

"It's a surprise, we should pack tonight as well so we don't have to do it all tomorrow," he states.

"Ok, do you want me to get anything while I'm out?" I ask.

"Can you get me some hair wax and some hair gel?" he asks. I smirk "you're laughing," he says.

"I'm not," I said as my smirk turned into a smile.

"Yes you are, I can hear you or you're smiling," he states. "If Carl was asking you this it would be completely normal," he said and I laughed. "See, you even agree," he said and I smiled to myself. He sounds so different on the phone it's a little strange it's like he sounds more British if that's even possible.

"Logan," I said and he went silent.

"One minute," he said and then I heard movement.

"You just need to sign there and there sir," I hear a girl said, causing me to frown "thank you, here's your receipt," the voice said again.

"Thanks," I hear Logan said and then movement again. "Sorry, carry on," he says.

"Who was that?" I ask.

"A shop assistant,"

"Which shop?" I ask

"I'm not telling," he says.

"So you're in the city?" I ask.

"Yes,"

"Do you want to meet us?" I ask.

"Ok I can then get my hair stuff myself then, but you're not getting your present until we get home," he said and I smirk a little

"Where would you like to meet me then?" he asks.

"McDonalds Julie wants to eat something fatty apparently," I said and he laughed.

"Ok see you soon," he said and I smiled and put the phone down. I sit back with the girls and smile to myself.

"I'm guessing the phone call went well with that smile on your face," Yasmin said and smiles at me.

"He's going to meet us. You don't mind, do you?" I ask them both. They shake their heads and then Melanie returns.

"Don't mind what?" she asks.

"Logan meeting us," I said and straight away I notice the dislike of that idea in her face. I sigh and look at my phone. "It doesn't matter, I'll tell him I'll just see him at home," I said as I start to text him.

"No..no it's ok I don't mind," she said and I look at her. "I don't mind," she said and smiles.

"Cool I told him to meet us at McDonalds because we're off there next aren't we?" I ask. They nod and I start to finish my salad.