Chapter 60

**Logan**

I look at Megan as she makes me stand outside an underwear store. She had dragged me into this shop full of scented things and we were followed by Courtney which was not a pleasure. Now she's dragging me in here doesn't this just sort of put out that we're together and we're planning a night of passion on Valentine's Day?

"You're not serious?" I ask.

"Yes, I need some night clothes,"

"But you have loads at home," I then look around to see Courtney with her friends coming our way.

"You can stay out here and keep Courtney company if you like," she says.

"Never mind I'm coming," I said running into the store "you're so cruel to leave me out there with them," I said and follow her around the shop. She picks up night dress after night dress and a load of underwear and I want nothing more but to eat.

She drags me into a changing room. I sit on the buffet provided and then start to play on my phone while she tries whatever on. A girl walks in and knocks on the door after about five minutes and Megan lets her in surprisingly and then I hear them talking.

They talk about her size whatever that is then they go quiet and I hear the girl recognise who she is. I sigh and look at the wooden door separating them from me.

"Oh no I've made you feel uncomfortable I'm sorry," the girl said and I can picture Megan's face "It's ok you know I know what it's like, not to that extremeness but my mother's boyfriend raped me," I sigh really did this have to turn into this. I really would not be able to cope with two crying girls; I can only just cope with Megan for now. "You should try a group...no no don't look like that I'm honest, I got pregnant after mine and well I went to a group because my now fiancé told me to well forced me to and it helped me to bond with my little boy better because I resented him for like a year but now I love him to bits and I wouldn't trade him for the world. I do have my off days but that group has helped me a lot, you should try one I went to loads before I found one I was comfortable in, but do try them out, it helped me become more open about it" she explains to her and I let out my breath and sudden relief washes over me I wasn't going to have to put up with two sobbing girls.

"So what are we doing tonight then?" Megan asks me as I follow her into the kitchen, she turns and looks at me "Mr Peters?" she asks smiling

"Well I figured," I said, moving the shopping onto the table and walking towards her "we'd watch movies and get fat," I smiled while saying it and wrapping my arms around her waist "what did you have in mind Miss Wright?" I ask, pressing my forehead against hers and pecking her lips.

"Hmm...You're just thinking about your belly," she said smiling "I guess we could do that," she says.

"We have the house to ourselves so we can get up to anything," I said and I watch as a small smile forms on her lips. I admit I intended for that to sound a little dirty but I had heard her talking to Melanie so I knew she wasn't ready for any of that.

"Can we order food instead of cooking?" she asks. I nod and she wraps her arms around my neck and move her fingers through the back of my hair. I smile and look at the table to see two cards on the table. I knew one was most definitely from me but the other had me stumped,"

"Who is that card from?" I ask.

"I don't know there's no name," she said and I pull away from her and walk towards it and read it. I read over it once more looking at the writing, the loop of 'g' in Megan and the writing it was slanted and flicked and I knew just who's writing it was. A sigh escapes and I place the card back down and look at Megan, she smiles and grabs my hand. "Come on Mr Peters," she said dragging me into the living room.

"I need to take Max for a run," I say. She looks behind me to see him sniffing at the door.

"Just let him out in the garden to do his business and then take him out tomorrow," she says. I sigh and look down. I hadn't taken my own dog for a run for a while; Carl had done it because I still can't run because of this leg. "Please," she said pouting. "I know it seems cruel honest I do but you'll take him for a run now and you won't get back until about nine," she said "and then you'll be too tired so you'll get a shower and then you'll mark a few things and then you'll be in bed by ten," she moans.

"Fine but if my dog gets fat because of you you'll pay," I say. She nods and smiles. I turn and walk towards the back door to let him out.

**Megan**

Logan watches me as I undo the plait in my hair as he undresses. I'm watching him from my mirror. He looks away once I'm finished and walks off into the bathroom while unbuttoning his jeans. We had done exactly what we planned. He ordered three pizza's some Chinese and then we sat and ate a tub of ice-cream each. I swear I had put on half of my body weight in the last four hours. I admit he ate tons more than me like try two pizzas three portions of fry's two chow miens and then half of mine. I understand you have to gain fat to build muscle but that is all the wrong kinds of fat.

"Megan," he said dragging out my name.

"What?" I said doing the same thing.

"I'm getting fat," he said and walks out of my bathroom in his boxers his face wet.

"I'm really not surprised you eat more than your dog, me, Carl and Melanie," I said with a small smile.

"I'll stay in the gym all day on Saturday," he says. I smile a little and look back in the mirror and start to take my make up off. He sits next to me on my buffet facing the other way and turns to look at me. "I urm heard you today?" he says. I look at him with half of my face eyeliner free the other not so eyeliner free.

"When?" I ask.

"When you were with Melanie this morning," he says. I sigh and carry on taking my make up off "I just want you to know, that I know full well you're not ready and that I don't blame you for not wanting to take your sleeping tablets, just open up to me more ok?" he asks and I can feel him looking at me ashe said that. I sigh and finish off taking my make up off.

"Ok," I said and look at him "if anything I'm more open with you than I am with anyone else, the only reason why I didn't tell you what you heard was because I don't want you to think I'm frigid," I said slowly not wanting to tell him. He chuckles and I look at him "Why are you laughing?" I ask.

"Because it's funny,"

"No it's not," I said and stand up "how can you said it's funny? When it clearly isn't. You're older than me, more experienced than me and weren't you used to having sex like all the time before me?" I snap. It hurt that he found it funny and hurt more that he just laughed at me right in front of me.

"Come here," he said moving his arms around me.

"No," I snap walking away from him. I walk to my bed and climb in it "Go sleep in your own bed," I order.

"Megan I'm sorry, I didn't mean it like that," he said and I feel him sit on my bed.

"So how did you mean it?"

"I meant I find it funny that you think I'd think you were frigid, I mean why would I even think that Megan. We've only been going out for a few weeks do you really think I'm going to try and get into your pants?" he asks. I shrug "Well I'm not and I'm not just saying this because of what's happened I'd said it if I had just met you and fallen for you as much as I have now," he explains.

"I hate you," I said quietly

"Why?" he said as if it had just broken his heart.

"Because you always say the right things so I can't stay mad at you," I pause "it's annoying and that accent doesn't help matters," I say

"Does this mean you don't hate me and that you forgive me?" he asks.

"Depends if you get your butt into my bed and wrap your arms around me and shut up by the time I have finished my..." and as I said that he's in my bed with his arms around me as quiet as a mouse "...sentence,"

"I'm sorry," he says. I sigh and turn my lamp off. "You're still in a mood with me,"

"Logan shut up," I say. He sighs and reaches over me and turns my lamp back on. I take a deep breath closing my eyes and ignore him. I feel him move about and then I feel something touch my nose. I frown and open my eyes to see a rose in front of me. "Really do you pull them out of your butt or something?" I ask.

"No but if I did they would look so much better," I smile at his comment and I take the rose "it's from the roses I bought you," he says. The thing was we couldn't find a vase big enough for a hundred roses so we had to buy a load of separate vases and separate the bouquet. My bedroom is now pretty much red, I have roses on my piano, my dressers a few laid on my floor around my bed so yes covered. The worst thing was we didn't even buy enough vases for the flowers so I just had random roses around my room.

"Logan," I said and from the moonlight I can see him sit up and look down at me. I sit up and look him in his now midnight blue eyes "I want you to be my first," he stops and tilts his head at me "I just wanted you to know,"

"Why?" he asks.

"What?" I ask.

"Why do you want me to be your first? I'm just curious," he says.

"I don't know how to explain it, you just....you're just...I just feel like..." I stutter out suddenly wishing I hadn't told him. He smiles and leans in to kiss me. He then pulls back and lays at the side of me pulling me close to him and kissing me once more. It's not long until I'm asleep and for once I sleep through the full night.